I have been wearing black mostly for almost five years now. Partly it's because my g/f has been kind of dressing me and she says I look good in black. That's partly because she's in West LA and the black thing is big there. Secondly, it's easier to just have things match. But I've been in a funk of sorts for ages and I finally touched the long-standing ache under a lot of stuff in my life.
I've been in mourning of sorts for almost five years now. I haven't said Kaddish because America's not dead, but America is kind of in a coma and she may never come out.